Future looking down on me

Looking down. Her small, broken body. There she was, my mother was dead. I had watched her for years destroy her body and not give a damn who it effected.

But her body finally started to catch up. Her heart gave out .

I will never be like her, I will never put losing weight above being a loving parent.

....... but dear god help me get the image of my mother dead out of my mind.

Someone help me move forward.

Someone take away my pain.